LUSHTICE

growing pains.

So here I am in my last minutes of age 23 — seconds away from turning 24.

In 5+ previous years — I would have been out drinking and hanging out with friends right now. This year? I’m ringing my birthday in alone. Two steps forward, one step back. I’ve spent the last hour or so listening to two songs in particular - songs that I listened to a lot this year, because of the obvious reference - and my love for both bands.

Amazing still it seems
I’ll be 23
I wont always love what I’ll never have
I wont always live in my regret
- Jimmy Eat World : 23

Are you where you thought you’d be
So beautiful and only twenty-three
Opposition rests in the hearts
With no, with no, with no opportunity
It’s not that we don’t talk
It’s just no one really listens and honesty fades
Like a politician lost in the course
All smiles and no one remembers our names
- Anberlin : Alexithymia

Mid-twenties are so weird.

Im old enough to know better. But Im still too young to care.

Hello 24 — where are all of your songs?

xo Jillie